Castle Mom and Dad

I do not write as poetically as my daughters, and I certainly do not have as mush to say, but my emotions are getting the better of me today or again as I struggle with school, work, church, home , family, wedding stuff and just day to day living.

School: So much for going at your own pace. 6 months is 6 months, and what isn't done goes as incomplete and is added to next semester, I do think I'll be done, if I pass everything I turn in the next 3 weeks, but the pressure is more than I can stand most days. I do like learning, I just hate dead-lines and pressure and not being able to work the computer like I need to.

Work: Everyday new responsibilities are being added to what I have to do but nothing is ever taken away. I know everyone faces challenges in their jobs, and people rely on you doing what you should, but when life and not death is what the expectation is, then there is just a bit more frustration involved. I know I am not lazy, but I pray everyday that I make it to retirement, and can enjoy life without being so on edge all the time about getting it all right and never forgetting to get it all done.

Church: I have a testimony and this is where I want to be and learning more and more about our Lord and Savior is a focus I want in my life. I can't add a BUT here, so I'll just add that in 3 weeks I have about 25-30 sisters coming over to my kitchen to watch me make Chicken Gnocchi soup, I wish I could just say "NO, not at this time", and not feel guilty.

Home: I don't cook, clean, do laundry, watch TV (much), shop for food or anything else, leisure read for book club, (they still let me come even though I haven't read a fun book for months), O ya book club is at my house this month too. Things just seem to be piling up and getting dusty thus the worry over soup night.

Family: I will never be able to stop worrying about each of them, and that's just what comes with willingly having children and being married. Mel and Justin are hurting right now for a miscarriage, and we all hurt for them too. There is a wedding in the works that I haven't done much of anything for it, but I know they'll tell me when to get my act together on that. Praying for each of them helps with the worrying and being willing to do what ever they might need is about all I can do. Having a loving and understanding husband help too.

Life goes on and I am grateful I can get up each morning and be apart of each day, and able to say thank you at the end of each day.