Monday, April 28, 2008

It's a secret

Most days or weeks I really don't have anything worth blogging about. But today an opportunity arouse that I have taken advantage of, but the hard part is...it's a secret. Don't you just hate it when someone says they have a secret and they won't tell you? Well I hate that to, but I'm going to do it anyway. Sorry.

Most days when I am at work everyone works together so well, my own unit and those we take pt's from. As a team leader I know when people are stressed or over their heads for a time, and I try to pitch in, or even just take over and help as best as I can. But today someone from the ER told me she was going to "write me up" because it had been 30 min. since she had wanted to bring her pt. to the floor and our room wasn't clean yet and the new policy (which I found out was a complete lie) said they had to do that. I can't even remember that last time I was so angry. I had such an adrenalin rush I didn't even know how to handle it. I told her to go right a head but there was nothing I could do about it. I of course vented to every person from the house supervisor to the ER charge nurse, to my head nurse. I was reassured there was no such policy and the ER RN was just saying that.

Now the interesting part was...that adrenalin rush. Usually between 3:30 to 5pm I am so tired! I am trying to wrap up all my duties and help others get their stuff done and I am just dragging. But today I could have gone on for hours. Even after I got home I was still wound up. I should have gone for a walk, but instead I blogged.

I know anger or the fight or flight mechanism we all have is important, but if I could get that feeling everyday for just a few hours I could probably save the world or at least clean my whole house.

I don't think I've mentioned how excited and blessed we are to be having a new little family member soon. But I have got to stop shopping.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Just a week

This has been just a week. Last Sunday was great, the kids and mom were all here for dinner and to watch conference. I love having everyone home, and talking an laughing and we even started Jodi's wii tournament. I didn't do very well. Listening to conference may have been a little more difficult with that many people in the house, but I was able to listen and enjoy the words spoken, I do know that I need 2 couches in the family room, if we're all going to hang out in one place.

Monday I went with mom to her Dr. appt. that wasn't so fun. Mom was given news, she sort-of already knew, that her kidneys are starting into failure. But after getting my own second opinion I was told she is probably a long was off from actual failure with the numbers I gave him, so that was good news. This has been a rough week for mom and thinking she had to decide right now what she would do, but she does have a while yet. Good news for all of us.

Tuesday. Starting Sunday night my left lower side had started to hurt and all day Monday, so I knew what that meant, my diverticulitis was flaring up again. It's been 16 months since the last one, but I knew what is was. So off to the Dr, I went and he gave me the whole lecture about coming in sooner and not eating anything that will hurt it. So I got started on the most awful antibiotic known to man, so now I get to share in Mels morning sickness, but mine only has to last 10 days. I then got ready for enrichment night, where we just had our recipe exchange of casserole dishes. I couldn't eat much, but I love just sitting around and talking with the sisters that come. We didn't have a huge turnout, but the Elders happened by and they really enjoyed the feast. I did get some really good ideas for another time.

Wednesday I had, what I hopped, would be my last knee Dr. Appt. I got there at 1105for a 1110 appt. The sign was up that said the wait was 60-90 min., long. This has been the case every time I have gone there, even for an appt. at 0930. How does this happen? I was so mad by time I got into the office for my 2 min. appt. I told him I was fine, I didn't need to ever come back. He apologized and said you just want the hell out of here, and I agreed. But my knee does feel great. I then went home and did a 2hr. teleconference for work, and sat wrapped in blankets because our power had been off and was for a total of 6 hrs. But I did get to crochet while getting paid to listen and make comments now and then.

I called in sick on Thurs. my B-Day, which my family was glad for, so we had an little impromptu dinner, ( we celebrated Sunday with everyone), Gord and Jess happened by, Kim was out of Town, and I got some great gifts from everyone. Then I went out new sister visiting with our presidency and we only had one new young sister tell us she didn't want any church contact, that's pretty good for us.

Friday was off to work again, I could get used to only working one day a week. A very busy as usual day, with only a few really scary situations. Then home, a quick change of clothes and off to a wedding shower, which I had forgotten about and thanks to Jodi who got a cute gift after work for me.

Now it's Sat. Slept in. Helped Jodi with a wedding gift for tonight. Now I am blogging and I really need to do house work, so I can start my next week with a fresh face.

I am so grateful I have a reason to get up everyday. It may not be exciting, it certainly has no thrills, it may have pain involved for me or others, but I am still glad to be a part of this great plan and have a great family and friends.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

101 for 51 years

101 things. I am older than my girls who did this, so I am sure I can come up with
More than and 101 things about myself. So here goes. No one has to read this.

1. I was born of Goodly Parents.
2. I am the 2nd of five siblings, Karl, me, Paul, Karen, Gregg.
3. I am 51 years old. ½ of 102. I never thought I’d be this old and I still remember
when 40 seemed forever old.
4. I am married to a man I love and adore for Time and All Eternity.
5. I have 4 grown great kids who I love more than words can express. Melanie 28,
Jodi 26, Gordon 22, Matthew 20. Mel and Gord are married I have grown to
Love their spouses, Justin and Jessica and am grateful they love my kids.
6. I have been married for 29 ½ years.
7. I can still remember my 1st home, in Magna. Small white house, on the corner,
facing East, with a fun basement where Karl and I could ride our
bikes around in the winter and we could walk and ride to grandmas. We moved
when I was 3.
8. My 1st best friend was Debbie Faccett, and my 2nd was Luann Barker.
9. My schools were Whittier Elm. Brockbank Jr. High. Cyprus High.
10. I was a very poor student. Never really having good grades. My only F was
in 4th grade, Mom and my teacher thought is was because Dad died, but it
could have been because my desk was full of Troll dolls and their furniture.
11. The only thing I remember about being Baptized was that I got sick and threw
up after, and couldn’t eat when we all went out to dinner.
12. I had a crush on my 6th grade teacher, Mr. Taylor.
13. I hated Jr. High and riding the bus. Enough said. Very bad memories there.
14. I had a Math teacher once tell my Mom that I had “Diarrhea of the mouth” thus
more bad grades.
15. I liked High School, Pep Club, Choir, Musicals, driving, friends, seminary, again
not so much the studying.
16. My dad died when I was 10. I remember a lot of different things about that time.
Doxey’s coming to school to tell us, lots of people in our home, mom and grandma
crying all the time, too too many people hugging me, standing in the viewing line
with mom and Karl and turning around when people came through that I didn’t want
to talk to. I remember thinking “these people are supposed to make me feel better,
why are they all crying and me telling them everything will be OK” I was 10 people!
17. I have never dyed my hair, only a few highlights a few years back.
18. I used to bite my fingernails. At 19 I had a waitress job at Little America and I stopped.
I do know mom and grandma tried all kinds of horrible ways to get me to stop.
19. I have never smoked or even tried,
20. The only alcohol I have ever had was in Hawaii when at a dinner a drink was
handed to me and I had a few sips and told Kim it was terrible and he laughed and
said it was a Mi Ti and full of Rum.
21. I have had braces twice and should probably have them again. But I won’t.


22. I still can cry at the dentist and need a valium ahead of time if work has to be
done. Not because of my anxiety, but because my jaw will lock up. Ask Gordon
about his Valium ear.
23. I have very dry skin and love my back scratched
24. I have never had a professional message. I was given a gift certificate once
from the kids but I let them use it. I just can’t bare the thought of someone doing
that. However I love a good message and Kim does a great job. (maybe too
much information).
25. I have never had a manicure or pedicure. I’d like one but not at the Wal-Mart Salon
26. I am a list maker; it gives me great pleasure to check things off.
27. I can’t stand to be LATE, or made to WAIT. It is just rude and inconsiderate.
you can always plan a head, even if that means the night before. Traffic and
emergencies are always allowed.
28. I love big cars/trucks. For some reason I like being high up on the road.
29. I enjoy and drive too FAST. I don’t even notice, my kids are always telling me
to check my speed...
30. I love my husband. He is great in so many ways. Thoughtful, caring, spiritual,
loving, lots of energy, very very patient. I am very blessed to have found him and
smart enough to have married him. He has always taken good care of me and our
family.
31. I worry that I don’t deserve his love and attention and that someday he will say
“enough is enough” and leave.
32. I am Moody.
33. I cry way too easily, sometimes for no reason.
34. I do not believe in PMS, never have and never will. If I am mad at you or stressed
or emotional it is the person or the situation NOT SOME DAME HORMONE!
35. I have graduated from college 3 times and still do not have my bachelor’s degree.
1st an Assoc. in Early Childhood Education, 2nd LPN, 3rd RN Assoc. degree.
36. 1st job Arctic Circle, 2nd and 3rd (same time) sewing factory (one reason I went to
College) and cashier at a local Pharmacy and drug store.
37. When I was in Mutual (Young Women’s) I never missed a sacrament meeting, I
had perfect attendance at all my meetings. I should have been written up in the
New Era, but none of my leaders really cared. No resentment here.
38. I was engaged after dating Kim for 3 weeks. Married after 5 months.
39. I have been fired from one job, RA in college, after participating in a water fight.
40. I actually called off the engagement/wedding once. We disagree on the reason but
my story is the right one.
41. I kissed Kim before he ever asked me out, and our 1st date was a sleep over.
42. I have had a total hysterectomy, 8 months later a gallbladder surgery, 6 months
later an appendectomy. When I started having abd. pain I had to call my girls and
asked what it felt like, they have both had appendectomies also.
43. I HATE having my picture taken.



44. I have been in our R.S. presidency for 4 years and 10 months. With 3 presidents,
I have planned 5 birthday social, 4 fall socials, 4 super craft night, and countless of
great activities (no one else will praise me).
45. I am very over weight, always have been and will probably always be.
46. I hate to exercise and get sweaty. Now you know why.
47. I don’t like flat hair, on me anyway. I am from the 70’s and puffy hair was in.
48. Sorry to confess, I’ve actually had a mullet.
49. I like to watch TV, hate reality shows.
50. I collect nativity sets. I hope they won’t all end up at the DI when I’m gone
51. Loved Seinfeld and can use and recite many episodes.
52. I am a Law and Order junkie.
53. I don’t like yard work
54. I like to organize closets and drawers.
55. I hate house work, but love a clean kitchen and counter. I have been known to have
dust bunnies fly off my ceiling fans if the speed is on high.
56. I coached Jodi’s softball team for 2 years. The Minnie Mitts. We hardly ever
won, but we were sure cute in our uniforms.
57. I wish I had stuck with and had enjoyed playing the piano.
58. I used to love being known as Aunt LeeAnn to Melanie’s friends and feeding them
OJ and corndogs. (the box in the freezer now might actually be from her high school
days) remember I hate house work.
59. I am proud of all my kids and their accomplishments. My only identity when they
were young was “aren’t you __________ mom” I would always be happy to say Yes.
60. I have been a Nurse for 30 years, an RN for 19 and LPN for 10 and Aide for 1.
61. I have only worked for 1 company, IHC, 2 hospitals McKay Dee & Utah Valley.
62. Since being married I have only lived in 2 homes and 4 apartments.
63. Only owned 2 new cars and 5 used. I have never nick named a car. But we did
have a big yellow station wagon once, and I would get mad at the girls if they
would be embarrassed to be in it, but actually I was totally embarrassed to drive it.
64. I am afraid of the dark. Especially the forest darkness when camping. I just
know all the crazy people are out there and just waiting.
65. Craft fairs are my weakness. I don’t always buy, but I like to look and get ideas
and take pictures if no one is looking.
66. I would rather do crafts that just about anything.
67. I hope that my vinyl machines doesn’t brake down and hope I might someday have
an actual business at home.
68. I like going to church meetings and feel bad when I miss for work.
69. I have a testimony that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is TRUE.
And that we have a living and loving prophet who receives revelation and instruct-
tions from the Lord. And we can be an Eternal Family if we just follow the
Commandments.
70. My girls have said they want to marry someone like their dad. I am not sure
the boys feel the same way about me.


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71. I like to decorate for the holidays. I have too many Rubbermaid bins to count, but
I counted them anyway. Christmas 23, Thanksgiving 2, Fall 2, Halloween with
Costumes 7, July 4th 1, Easter 2, Spring/Summer 1, St. Patrick 1. Please don’t tell
Kim.
72. I usually cry on Christmas
73. I like having parties, dinners & family gatherings at my home. They drive my
family crazy because I get anxious and need things perfect. I have lightened up
over the years.
74. I like talk radio, even though I’m not completely listening most times.
75. I hate cross-word puzzles.
76. I am addicted to, crave, think about, plan for, must have, bake with, makes me
temporarily happy, quilt after, CHOCOLATE.
77. I love my extended family.
78. I like playing Spider Solitary on the computer; it’s relaxing and has an undo button.
79. I have great in-laws. They are wonderful people and grandparents, very giving and
great examples to our children and Kim and I.
80. I am not good at the computer. But I am getting better with my families help.
81. When I take eggs out of the 18 count carton, I rearrange the remaining eggs to be
evenly spaced and balanced.
82. My knees are starting to hurt. I have had surgery on one.
83. I like to read, and have recently joined a book club.
84. I can’t wait to be a Grandparent! O ya I am going to be one!
85. I need to go to the Temple more often.
86. I count strange things, like tiles, light fixtures in meetings, stripes on anything,
buttons, train cars, just random pointless things.
87. Being an RN can be rewarding, very frustrating , very tiring, scary at time,
too much responsibility at times, not enough pay, worked well with
raising my family, can bring tears of sadness and laughter.
88. I love to have money in savings. I hate to spend it. I have always had
a fear of not having enough money. Ask any family member.
89. I get home sick when I travel. But I really don’t travel much. And I don’t plan
vacations well.
90. I don’t like sports, to play or watch, unless my kids were playing.
91. I hardly ever eat a well balanced meal. Isn’t carrot cake considered a Vegetable?
92. I love to eat out.
93. I am still friends with my college roommate. Lauretta.
94. I pin socks together before they are washed.
95. I have shaky hands and my handwriting is never consistent. I’ve heard that is
a sign of multiply personalities
96. I don’t like to shop for clothes and I hate to try them on.
97. I am not a pet person, but I love my kids so we have had 4 dogs, 4 bunnies,



2 birds, countless garbles, fish, frogs, lizards, turtles, and a homeless cat that
soon had kittens.
98. I pray that my kids will be happy.
99. I love my mom and family very much.
100. Kim and my kids are the best things that ever happened to me.
101. I am blessed beyond measure, and give thanks everyday for all my blessings.

Thursday, April 3, 2008

A new look at the World or Roy

You can tell things aren't very exciting when getting new windows has to be shared with the blog. We have really liked our home. It might be a little older than most, but it has want we need and we've worked hard on making it a great home. When we first moved in it did a lot of work. All new paint, two tone, all new flooring, carpet and wood laminate, new counter tops, and new window coverings and converting the range and dryer to gas, we even added a shower to the tub (who puts in a tub without a shower anyway)?

Just like every ones homes we have so much more we'd like to do. So we decided we'd better start with the basics, which are windows and more insulation. So we did it, the windows, and I love them. They slide so great and come out easy for cleaning (which I seldom do), I can already feel the added warmth they provide (not really), but we do get some kind of energy rebate for them. But they look so nice, the color is perfect for our house, inside and out. Anyway since there is no wedding this year we decided we could afford windows, so if anything happens this year (JODI) too bad.

Regarding the wii, yes it is fun. I have never played a video game before but the kids have talked me into it, and I have even made my own character and use her to play. We only have a few games, but the competition is kind-of fun, even though there really isn't any skill involved. Sports skill that is, knowing how is use the remote isn't so easy.

Also congratulations to Jessica for winning her nutrition award. She was very excited and couldn't stop smiling, but when isn't she smiling?

I have great kids and rather we are playing games with them or watching them at their accomplishments we are very blessed to have our family.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

book review

About 6 months ago I sort of forced myself to be invited into a Book Club. I love to read and I really like to talk about what I’ve read, rather good or bad. Well what I’ve learned since being in the club is we don’t really talk much about the book, but we do a lot of talking and seem to have a good time doing it.

Melanie was given, for Christmas, a reading log book. Something I really think is a great idea. How many times have you finished a book and then wanted to tell someone about it and forgot the name or author, or for yourself the great ideas or points from the book. So I’ve made up my own reading log book and I am going to try and keep a record of what I read and if it’s good or bad.

I do wish however that books could have a rating standard, something like movies. Only because I recommended a book that came highly recommended by Melanie to our club and we all wanted to read it. I’ve now finished it and I only hope the occasional language doesn’t offend anyone. So far, since I’ve been in the club, we haven’t read anything with bad language. So I guess at the next gathering I’ll find out.
Anyway the book was ‘My Sisters Keeper” by Jodi Picoult. It only took me a few days to finish the book and Monday night about 6:30 I just knew I had to try and finish it. I had about 150 pages left and as I’m reading I keep checking to see how many aages were left, not because I’m tired and want to be done, but because I don’t want it to be finished, the ending takes you completely by surprise, but you know you won’t be happy or completely satisfied when you are finished. All the way through the book you keep asking yourself, as a parent what would I do, how I would handle the constant crisis that this family is in? It is a great read and even though the language has some rough spots I would also recommend it.
http://www.amazon.com/My-Sisters-Keeper-Jodi-Picoult/dp/B000OV170W/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1205902388&sr=1-

Now one I’m not so sure I would recommend. “The Appeal” by John Grisham. I have read all his books and have loved them all. But this one, made me so angry and frustrated, something I am sure he was going for, but I honestly have to say I did not enjoy the read. But he is a good writer, and just like all his other books I am sure this one could be true and that just makes it all the more frustrating. So this one has a partial recommendation. His other one that came out just before “Playing for Pizza” that was fun and very relaxing, if you like football you will probably really like this book.

I am grateful I enjoy reading.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Happy Birthday Gordon


Back in the good old days when mom and dads didn’t know the sex of their child before it was born, we were pretty excited to get a son. We had told ourselves if we had another girl we were defiantly done, so when a boy came and we were elated.

Gordon’s name: We were having a hard time coming up with a boys name just incase we needed it. A girls name might have been Mickie, but we had nothing for a boy. Kim and I had been sitting at the kitchen table and Jodi came in and had heard us talking and she said she wanted him named Gordon. We really liked the sound of Gordon William Hardcastle, it sounded strong and a little old fashioned and neither of us had heard it much. Only after we had made up our minds did we find out that Jodi really liked the bald black Sesame Street character Gordon. So you can decided who Gord is named after. Kim says it’s after Gordon B. Hinckley.

Gordon was due on Mel’s birthday March 14th, so when he was a few days late is was fine but after 7 days I was ready to die and at 10 days I knew I couldn’t take it anymore, so my Dr. let me go into the hosp. and get started.

He was a very long labor even with the meds. and at one point I just said let me go home and we’ll try again tomorrow and our Dr. just laughed and said I don’t think so.

Just like being born, Gord has always had a mind of his own and has done things on his own time frame, usually one that is right now because he hates to wait.

If ever he wants something he will figure out a way to get it i.e.: a Hammock, make one out of an old white sheet and rope, a head lantern, get some sewing elastic, needle and thread and an small flashlight, a car, get a paper rout and save for 3 years, buy it before you even turn 16, then sit in it everyday until you can drive it. Becoming Indiana Jones, find an old felt hat, a old rope, have a big tree right in your own yard, climb to the very top and never be afraid, want everyone you know to do the same, sleep in it if you could, have your side kick always with you, which for him was a big monkey, & want your brothers whole kindergarten class to walk past your house so they too can see how cool the tree really is.

Gordon went through a period where he would only wear cowboy boots, another where he would only wear Levis, even in the dead heat of summer. His clothes had to fit just right, so finally after many many frustrating mornings we learned to lay his clothes out the night before, but not just put them on a table, first the shirt, then the pants, the socks and shoes, he would make them look like a person.

He has always had good friends just not a lot of them, never dated in high school, or went to a dress up dance, but he then met the love of his life and has become very devoted to her and their marriage. One of many cute things he has done for Jessica, (that I know of) is for one of her birthdays she had been stressing about money but wanted her hair done, so he went and paid for the cut and color without her knowing and so when she went to pay they said it had already been taken care of. He is very devoted to her and to their marriage and the Lord. We are very proud of him and wish him a very Happy Birthday.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Mel -Bells Day



Happy Happy Birthday Melanie. This last year and one month have been very eventful for you and I am sure this year will be just as exciting, It won’t cost me as much as it will you, but the things to come will be very exciting.

Melanie was born in Provo Utah, our first child. We were very excited and very nervous. We had taken the Lamaze birthing classes because I was terribly afraid of needles, especially something that wound go in my back. We still had 2 classes to go and 3 1/2 weeks of pregnancy, but for some reason I read ahead in the manual and finished the material after our class. That next morning I had an appointment and the Dr. said I was getting close. Well close I was, because that night my water broke at midnight, so off we went. Mel was born 8 hrs later and without any needles. We were so excited, she was a beautiful baby girl. Healthy and crying and ready to be ours.

We already had a named picked out. Melanie if it was a girl. I grew up and often tended the cutest little girl named Melanie who I just adored and I also loved the name and so did Kim. It wasn’t very common and good thing her adorable face fit the name.

We went home 2 days later. Then our first crisis began. She would not stop crying, and would not eat. I just thought this must be normal, and this is what babies do. We were both exhausted and so was grandma. Then the next day my friend came by in the morning to see us, and looked at you and asked, “why is she so Yellow”? So off we went to the hosp. for a billiruben test. When we got home the phone was ringing and it was the hosp. telling us to come right back that you were sick. Your level was 22 and anything above 15 was critical.

They whisked you away and the next time we saw you, you were covered in IV lines and had blood and other fluids running into your tiny body. One thing about it at 8lbs. 2oz you were the biggest NICU baby there. We just sat around for hours and finally someone said “If she makes it through the night she should be OK” WHAT? We didn’t really even know what was wrong with you yet. But it turned out you had a very serious blood infection; you had “E-Coli Septicemia”. You were sick with bacteria that are normally found in the bowl, how you got it no one knew. My Dr. wondered if maybe when you got your little Vit-K shot your leg may have had stool on it. So we waited, and you did, obviously, make it through the night. Leaving the hosp. without you was a very tearful and emotional day, as were the days that followed, I would come up every 4hrs and dad would come a couple of times a days. After 10 days you finally got to come home.

I can’t go into all the details of you life right now, there are too many to count, but know this, that we love you. You are very talented in everything you try, very smart, both book and common sense, you have made good choice throughout you life and we have always been proud of you. You are stubborn to the core, and have the best memory of any one I know. You are loyal to your friends and vote in the wrong party. You love music, but listen to a strange radio station. You are happily married and you are moving in all the right directions and we wish you the most Happy Birthday.